"When I write stories I am like someone who is in her own country, walking along streets that she has known since she was a child, between walls and trees that are hers." --Natalia Ginsburg

Monday 21 May 2012

Faithful


mir·a·cle

an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is considered as a work of God


My heart is aching tonight. Have you ever prayed for a miracle and not got it? I really wanted a miracle for my friend Wendy and her family—Her Mom had heart surgery three weeks ago and although she, her doctors, and her family fought valiantly for her health and life, she passed away this weekend. The day before she went for surgery I told her I would be praying for her--I loved her.

A few years ago, a new friend got cancer and was sick for a few months before she died. Her husband is a childhood friend—I wanted a miracle for them. I wanted it for me—I wanted her to get well so we could sit on her front steps in the sunshine--drink tea and get to know each other better—I was certain we would get our miracle—we didn’t.

When my mother died, I would have given anything for God to turn back time for a few hours, so I could have driven home the evening before as I had planned. I didn’t actually pray for that miracle, but I certainly thought about it. When Dad was sick for three weeks before he died, I prayed for God to heal his body. I wasn’t done loving him—or Mom.

Have you ever wondered about the miracles in our lives that we don't pray for? The disasters avoided because of God's intervention? Or the blessings in our lives that we don't ask for? Is love not a miracle? Our family? Our friends? Our very lives?

Do I question God’s faithfulness? No. I do not always like or understand God’s answers to my prayers---but I choose to trust Him—even when I am disappointed. I will never completely know or understand this side of eternity His love or the way He has worked in my life--through disappointment and blessings, but I am thankful for His unfailing love and faithfulness in my life.


2 comments:

  1. Hi Annie,
    I appreciate your thoughts on today's page. It is a lovely thing that you can take time to contemplate your time with both of your dear parents through your writing. Right now I am keenly aware that having had Jody in my life for over 40 years was the Miracle itself.

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    1. Thank-you Friend--you and Jody were a gift to each other. If I am ever blessed to marry, I would hope to build a relationship with my husband as you two had.Love you.

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