I am very grateful for 2012 and the gifts
it brought. My new attitude of ‘Why not?’ has served me well. It took me on a
trip through my past with much gratitude for God's faithfulness in my
life. He can take ALL of my life choices--even those I may
regret, and redeem them.
In the fall
I took a trip I had dreamed of my whole life--to England/ Europe. Someone said
it was a trip of a lifetime---ummm, no. It is the first of many trips--God
willing.
I look forward to
the challenges—the struggles, the triumphs and joy 2013 may bring. If I
choose DAILY to let God lead my life, He will never
lead me where He will not take care of me.
Lord give me
wisdom to see your guidance, and strength and courage—always courage-- to do
your will.
Lead me on—I am
ready for a new adventure!
Why Not?
So.....it was a
remark my cousin made about mindful
discipline that got me
thinking. We were talking about children at the time, but I began to think how
that could apply to my life. So I
thought about different words, (mindful, deliberate, purposeful), and decided I
liked the sound of deliberate living—hence the name of my Blog—A Deliberate
Life.
Years ago I filled
a notebook with recipes and ideas for décor and music for the café of my
dreams. When I was offered the opportunity to fulfill this dream, I let fear
guide me and I turned the offer down.
Years ago I had a
friend make me a pair of red pants with black paint splattered all over them. I
bitterly regret that decision.
Twenty some years
ago I left a letter unanswered---several months later when I wanted to answer
the letter, I had lost the address and had no way of finding it anywhere else.
I have loved to
write since I was very young. I never took the time to write or develop my
writing--I might have had a Pulitzer Prize by now—(laughing).
Quite often people
will ask me why? when I
tell them the things I want to do---- and I immediately think—why not? There have been too many times I
have listened to the whys--
and have doubted what was in my heart-- instead of having the courage to follow
the why nots. When I have made a deliberate
choice to do what is in my heart, I have often been blessed. (I will concede
that perhaps I should have consulted some of these why people before I had the red pants
made....sigh).
So I
deliberately looked at my regretful choices—I am changing what I can and
accepting what I can't.
Having my own
cafe? I still enjoy going back to the café I worked in when I was nineteen. The
one where the dream started. I will always be grateful to the owners Judith and
Peter for letting me work there and for believing in me enough to leave the
café in my hands on Saturdays. It could have been wonderful--but I have new
dreams now.
The unanswered
letter? Fast forward to 2012 and the joy of Google. I was able to find my
friend on Facebook. I had the information for eight months before I asked
myself why not? I wrote and I was delighted to
hear back--- and I am enjoying a renewed friendship.
Around the same
time I wondered if I should start the Blog I had been thinking about for over a
year----‘Why Not?’--- Things that have been in my heart for years I have
finally shared—Mom teaching me to make bread, (Art and Intuition of Bread
making’), Dad learning to make bread, (More Bread Please), and my favorite
memory from childhood, (Joy—My Cup Runneth Over).
I LOVE this
deliberate life. I feel like I am living with my eyes wide open and finally having the courage to listen to
what is in my heart. I am determined to live the rest of my life deliberately, looking for---and
living out the desires God puts in my heart for as long as He
gives me breath.
The red pants? All
I can say is, Please God---let there be no pictures floating around…
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